of course im not, i cant afford alcohol.
A RANT DEAR PEOPLE OF INTERNETLAND
im coming to the conclusion that no-matter who you are or how old you are, you will always be lonely and sad and depressed, all because your havnt found that special someone in your life...
.... this is of course the perception anyone would have, after looking at half of the contacts on my MSN list....
it's a curious fact that these girls and boys on here are of different ages and different backgrounds...and yet they are all united under the fact that they dont have 'the love of their life', even though they are sad and depressive and...irritating... and half of them havnt even hit puberty yet..... strange how 'their life just isnt complete', isnt it..?
-enter sarcasm here...or basicly anywhere in the last paragraph-
(some being in their 20's while some only being 10 or so -FYI i'm not like gwyn, i've mearly got their addy's by coaching them or them being family-)
another thing i really cant stand on msn or any social networking site, is when people insist upon publishing their sex lives.... really? on msn? on facebook? who the hell cares if you need a shag?! and for god sake, dont give your number in a 'last-ditch' attempt..... YOU'RE FUCKING 12/13! your're not supposed to even think about sex yet...
and if you ARE the kind of person who's said this at that age, then well done to you, i hope you get that council house and all the dole money you could hope for... well done
IN OTHER NEWS
is there any other news? snowing a bit, threatening a few things potentially like mine and trev's driving test.... otherwise, not much...
oh yeah, and i cant find any of my damn guitar picks.... i blame chuck norris, but daren't confront him with the issue...
erm... yeah thats it.
CIAO
'so? i stereotype...... it's quicker'
Wednesday, 10 February 2010
Monday, 1 February 2010
bi-polar atm
hey, had to get this off my chest:
i am so so damn happy right now because of beth. i love her. simple as.
i'm also so insainly angry that something will give very soon. i will kill him if i see him, ever.
sorry.
i'll blog properly later
i am so so damn happy right now because of beth. i love her. simple as.
i'm also so insainly angry that something will give very soon. i will kill him if i see him, ever.
sorry.
i'll blog properly later
Sunday, 10 January 2010
twice in one day
i know, i know.... im becoming annoying already
thing is, im going to try and actually blog some feelings every now and then....this is the point most of you will click the happy little X in the corner....
so basicly, im going to be as vague as humanly possible, conveying as little information as possible, in the hope that while not saying a word of sence, im making my point and this in turn will make me feel better...... that's the theory....
SSOOOOO...... i was reminded of something today via the medium of a picture of something i thought was gone for good.... a small virus in my mind that i thought i'd killed off, but apparently not.... given the right conditions, it seems that even something small can come back and knock you down.
now, i like to live IN the present and FOR the future.... the past has past, so leave it alone and only learn from it..... but this has got to me, and has been for ages... literally years. any time i forget, im reminded....
how is it that i can forget some truly traumatic things like nearly dying....a few times..... but i cant forget this one infintesimal blip on my proverbial radar.... the memory angers me, and it angers me because i remember it.... and then it saddens me....
if there is a god (or a therapist)... i need your help....
talk to you all properly soon
thing is, im going to try and actually blog some feelings every now and then....this is the point most of you will click the happy little X in the corner....
so basicly, im going to be as vague as humanly possible, conveying as little information as possible, in the hope that while not saying a word of sence, im making my point and this in turn will make me feel better...... that's the theory....
SSOOOOO...... i was reminded of something today via the medium of a picture of something i thought was gone for good.... a small virus in my mind that i thought i'd killed off, but apparently not.... given the right conditions, it seems that even something small can come back and knock you down.
now, i like to live IN the present and FOR the future.... the past has past, so leave it alone and only learn from it..... but this has got to me, and has been for ages... literally years. any time i forget, im reminded....
how is it that i can forget some truly traumatic things like nearly dying....a few times..... but i cant forget this one infintesimal blip on my proverbial radar.... the memory angers me, and it angers me because i remember it.... and then it saddens me....
if there is a god (or a therapist)... i need your help....
talk to you all properly soon
up in the air, where wise words fall with haste and grace, where the air is crisp and clear,
the sounds of the cars on the motorways below and the proud engine, huming in your ear,
the vast expanse of nothingness, and the infinity of the horizon and beyond,
the 'never needing to pull over' if you've done something wrong,
no ques, no jams, no sets of lights to impeed you on your way,
the many miles from you and me, passing every day,
to look down on his creation and to smile and say 'its mine',
to take a breath of adventure, knowing its not a waste of time,
for some things cant be taught anywhere you live,
and some you may not know untill you die,
but where ever you find extacy, hold it through and through,
like i found my euphoria in the sky.
the sounds of the cars on the motorways below and the proud engine, huming in your ear,
the vast expanse of nothingness, and the infinity of the horizon and beyond,
the 'never needing to pull over' if you've done something wrong,
no ques, no jams, no sets of lights to impeed you on your way,
the many miles from you and me, passing every day,
to look down on his creation and to smile and say 'its mine',
to take a breath of adventure, knowing its not a waste of time,
for some things cant be taught anywhere you live,
and some you may not know untill you die,
but where ever you find extacy, hold it through and through,
like i found my euphoria in the sky.
Monday, 4 January 2010
a blast from the past
hello to one and all, a happy christmas, new year, honika, whatever.....
before you ask, yes writing this did hurt... it's taken literally minutes to remember how this old thing works, and yes.... i did forget my password..
since we last crossed paths, alot has happened to me.... new double bed (omg the shiz), PS3 (im already annoying people by playing far too much COD), and a new general outlook on life. it's all groovy baby
passed my theory too, the wednesday before crimbo, which im sure damn near all of you knew about and have all ceased to give a toss as we've all done with everyone else who's passed it.... its the MOST feable step towards driving.... looking at a screen for up to an hour and clicking if something bad happens, and guessing the right box to tick..... such a thorough examination...
now, ive touched on my MA-HOO-SIVE gap between my last blog and this... truth is, i got very very bored of it. bored of my own writing. i find if i try one thing for too long i get incredibly sloppy... not just in spelling, but everything about it becomes bland.... its like keeping a diary: we all fill in the first 6 pages, and then we get bored after january 7th, and put it behind something for the next 358 days when we realise that we need a new one...and the cycle continues.
sparadic blogging is the only way i could be true to reality and yet stay relativly exciting....
then again..... who needs reality when imagination is just as vivid...
see you soon
before you ask, yes writing this did hurt... it's taken literally minutes to remember how this old thing works, and yes.... i did forget my password..
since we last crossed paths, alot has happened to me.... new double bed (omg the shiz), PS3 (im already annoying people by playing far too much COD), and a new general outlook on life. it's all groovy baby
passed my theory too, the wednesday before crimbo, which im sure damn near all of you knew about and have all ceased to give a toss as we've all done with everyone else who's passed it.... its the MOST feable step towards driving.... looking at a screen for up to an hour and clicking if something bad happens, and guessing the right box to tick..... such a thorough examination...
now, ive touched on my MA-HOO-SIVE gap between my last blog and this... truth is, i got very very bored of it. bored of my own writing. i find if i try one thing for too long i get incredibly sloppy... not just in spelling, but everything about it becomes bland.... its like keeping a diary: we all fill in the first 6 pages, and then we get bored after january 7th, and put it behind something for the next 358 days when we realise that we need a new one...and the cycle continues.
sparadic blogging is the only way i could be true to reality and yet stay relativly exciting....
then again..... who needs reality when imagination is just as vivid...
see you soon
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