today has been my 'epic fail day'. im pretty sure we all have them, but mine seemed to be particularly epic....
i failed my driving test thanks to nerves which would have been subsided prior to my test if it hadnt have been for my instructor turning up 3 minutes AFTER the examiner had called my name....safe to say i didnt have the hours recommended lesson before commencing the test, and i subsiquently shat about 5 bricks as i started the engine finally... next time, my instructor is paying for my test.
also ive said something in the wrong way to someone i care about dearly, and i think ive hurt them somewhat... so if you somehow read this, i am so sorry, it didnt mean it to come out like that and i trust you completly and utterly.
now im feeling like a douche who should announce things AFTER i think about what to say, and im gutted. very very gutted, and very....unhappy
Tuesday, 23 February 2010
Friday, 19 February 2010
love it when a plan comes together
plain and simple one today...more of a diary extract than a blog...
ive had an absolutly fantastic afternoon/evening with beth (hope she liked it too... (please god lmao))
an evening to remember xx
ive had an absolutly fantastic afternoon/evening with beth (hope she liked it too... (please god lmao))
an evening to remember xx
Wednesday, 17 February 2010
from dispare to where
hello everybody, how's life
seems that as one good thing happens, something (quite inkeeping with Newton here) opposite and just as bad takes effect.
well that sucks. and ive realised today that i need to grow up and speak whats truly on my mind, come hell with the consiquences. holding back everything doesnt seem to bode well with me. this, however, doesnt imply that i'll be arguing more, in fact this should lead to the opposite.
im starting to think that people around me are making mistakes, or have made mistakes, and i'm just there as fallout of said action. i can saftly say that i only regret one thing in my entire life... i dont know how many people around me can say the same.
i dont want to get in the way or be there just because im stray and will do for now...in all contexts and situations i find myself in
seems that as one good thing happens, something (quite inkeeping with Newton here) opposite and just as bad takes effect.
well that sucks. and ive realised today that i need to grow up and speak whats truly on my mind, come hell with the consiquences. holding back everything doesnt seem to bode well with me. this, however, doesnt imply that i'll be arguing more, in fact this should lead to the opposite.
im starting to think that people around me are making mistakes, or have made mistakes, and i'm just there as fallout of said action. i can saftly say that i only regret one thing in my entire life... i dont know how many people around me can say the same.
i dont want to get in the way or be there just because im stray and will do for now...in all contexts and situations i find myself in
Wednesday, 10 February 2010
my name is lewis, and i'm still an alcoholic...and proud
of course im not, i cant afford alcohol.
A RANT DEAR PEOPLE OF INTERNETLAND
im coming to the conclusion that no-matter who you are or how old you are, you will always be lonely and sad and depressed, all because your havnt found that special someone in your life...
.... this is of course the perception anyone would have, after looking at half of the contacts on my MSN list....
it's a curious fact that these girls and boys on here are of different ages and different backgrounds...and yet they are all united under the fact that they dont have 'the love of their life', even though they are sad and depressive and...irritating... and half of them havnt even hit puberty yet..... strange how 'their life just isnt complete', isnt it..?
-enter sarcasm here...or basicly anywhere in the last paragraph-
(some being in their 20's while some only being 10 or so -FYI i'm not like gwyn, i've mearly got their addy's by coaching them or them being family-)
another thing i really cant stand on msn or any social networking site, is when people insist upon publishing their sex lives.... really? on msn? on facebook? who the hell cares if you need a shag?! and for god sake, dont give your number in a 'last-ditch' attempt..... YOU'RE FUCKING 12/13! your're not supposed to even think about sex yet...
and if you ARE the kind of person who's said this at that age, then well done to you, i hope you get that council house and all the dole money you could hope for... well done
IN OTHER NEWS
is there any other news? snowing a bit, threatening a few things potentially like mine and trev's driving test.... otherwise, not much...
oh yeah, and i cant find any of my damn guitar picks.... i blame chuck norris, but daren't confront him with the issue...
erm... yeah thats it.
CIAO
'so? i stereotype...... it's quicker'
A RANT DEAR PEOPLE OF INTERNETLAND
im coming to the conclusion that no-matter who you are or how old you are, you will always be lonely and sad and depressed, all because your havnt found that special someone in your life...
.... this is of course the perception anyone would have, after looking at half of the contacts on my MSN list....
it's a curious fact that these girls and boys on here are of different ages and different backgrounds...and yet they are all united under the fact that they dont have 'the love of their life', even though they are sad and depressive and...irritating... and half of them havnt even hit puberty yet..... strange how 'their life just isnt complete', isnt it..?
-enter sarcasm here...or basicly anywhere in the last paragraph-
(some being in their 20's while some only being 10 or so -FYI i'm not like gwyn, i've mearly got their addy's by coaching them or them being family-)
another thing i really cant stand on msn or any social networking site, is when people insist upon publishing their sex lives.... really? on msn? on facebook? who the hell cares if you need a shag?! and for god sake, dont give your number in a 'last-ditch' attempt..... YOU'RE FUCKING 12/13! your're not supposed to even think about sex yet...
and if you ARE the kind of person who's said this at that age, then well done to you, i hope you get that council house and all the dole money you could hope for... well done
IN OTHER NEWS
is there any other news? snowing a bit, threatening a few things potentially like mine and trev's driving test.... otherwise, not much...
oh yeah, and i cant find any of my damn guitar picks.... i blame chuck norris, but daren't confront him with the issue...
erm... yeah thats it.
CIAO
'so? i stereotype...... it's quicker'
Monday, 1 February 2010
bi-polar atm
hey, had to get this off my chest:
i am so so damn happy right now because of beth. i love her. simple as.
i'm also so insainly angry that something will give very soon. i will kill him if i see him, ever.
sorry.
i'll blog properly later
i am so so damn happy right now because of beth. i love her. simple as.
i'm also so insainly angry that something will give very soon. i will kill him if i see him, ever.
sorry.
i'll blog properly later
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