hey, had to get this off my chest:
i am so so damn happy right now because of beth. i love her. simple as.
i'm also so insainly angry that something will give very soon. i will kill him if i see him, ever.
sorry.
i'll blog properly later
Monday, 1 February 2010
Sunday, 10 January 2010
twice in one day
i know, i know.... im becoming annoying already
thing is, im going to try and actually blog some feelings every now and then....this is the point most of you will click the happy little X in the corner....
so basicly, im going to be as vague as humanly possible, conveying as little information as possible, in the hope that while not saying a word of sence, im making my point and this in turn will make me feel better...... that's the theory....
SSOOOOO...... i was reminded of something today via the medium of a picture of something i thought was gone for good.... a small virus in my mind that i thought i'd killed off, but apparently not.... given the right conditions, it seems that even something small can come back and knock you down.
now, i like to live IN the present and FOR the future.... the past has past, so leave it alone and only learn from it..... but this has got to me, and has been for ages... literally years. any time i forget, im reminded....
how is it that i can forget some truly traumatic things like nearly dying....a few times..... but i cant forget this one infintesimal blip on my proverbial radar.... the memory angers me, and it angers me because i remember it.... and then it saddens me....
if there is a god (or a therapist)... i need your help....
talk to you all properly soon
thing is, im going to try and actually blog some feelings every now and then....this is the point most of you will click the happy little X in the corner....
so basicly, im going to be as vague as humanly possible, conveying as little information as possible, in the hope that while not saying a word of sence, im making my point and this in turn will make me feel better...... that's the theory....
SSOOOOO...... i was reminded of something today via the medium of a picture of something i thought was gone for good.... a small virus in my mind that i thought i'd killed off, but apparently not.... given the right conditions, it seems that even something small can come back and knock you down.
now, i like to live IN the present and FOR the future.... the past has past, so leave it alone and only learn from it..... but this has got to me, and has been for ages... literally years. any time i forget, im reminded....
how is it that i can forget some truly traumatic things like nearly dying....a few times..... but i cant forget this one infintesimal blip on my proverbial radar.... the memory angers me, and it angers me because i remember it.... and then it saddens me....
if there is a god (or a therapist)... i need your help....
talk to you all properly soon
up in the air, where wise words fall with haste and grace, where the air is crisp and clear,
the sounds of the cars on the motorways below and the proud engine, huming in your ear,
the vast expanse of nothingness, and the infinity of the horizon and beyond,
the 'never needing to pull over' if you've done something wrong,
no ques, no jams, no sets of lights to impeed you on your way,
the many miles from you and me, passing every day,
to look down on his creation and to smile and say 'its mine',
to take a breath of adventure, knowing its not a waste of time,
for some things cant be taught anywhere you live,
and some you may not know untill you die,
but where ever you find extacy, hold it through and through,
like i found my euphoria in the sky.
the sounds of the cars on the motorways below and the proud engine, huming in your ear,
the vast expanse of nothingness, and the infinity of the horizon and beyond,
the 'never needing to pull over' if you've done something wrong,
no ques, no jams, no sets of lights to impeed you on your way,
the many miles from you and me, passing every day,
to look down on his creation and to smile and say 'its mine',
to take a breath of adventure, knowing its not a waste of time,
for some things cant be taught anywhere you live,
and some you may not know untill you die,
but where ever you find extacy, hold it through and through,
like i found my euphoria in the sky.
Monday, 4 January 2010
a blast from the past
hello to one and all, a happy christmas, new year, honika, whatever.....
before you ask, yes writing this did hurt... it's taken literally minutes to remember how this old thing works, and yes.... i did forget my password..
since we last crossed paths, alot has happened to me.... new double bed (omg the shiz), PS3 (im already annoying people by playing far too much COD), and a new general outlook on life. it's all groovy baby
passed my theory too, the wednesday before crimbo, which im sure damn near all of you knew about and have all ceased to give a toss as we've all done with everyone else who's passed it.... its the MOST feable step towards driving.... looking at a screen for up to an hour and clicking if something bad happens, and guessing the right box to tick..... such a thorough examination...
now, ive touched on my MA-HOO-SIVE gap between my last blog and this... truth is, i got very very bored of it. bored of my own writing. i find if i try one thing for too long i get incredibly sloppy... not just in spelling, but everything about it becomes bland.... its like keeping a diary: we all fill in the first 6 pages, and then we get bored after january 7th, and put it behind something for the next 358 days when we realise that we need a new one...and the cycle continues.
sparadic blogging is the only way i could be true to reality and yet stay relativly exciting....
then again..... who needs reality when imagination is just as vivid...
see you soon
before you ask, yes writing this did hurt... it's taken literally minutes to remember how this old thing works, and yes.... i did forget my password..
since we last crossed paths, alot has happened to me.... new double bed (omg the shiz), PS3 (im already annoying people by playing far too much COD), and a new general outlook on life. it's all groovy baby
passed my theory too, the wednesday before crimbo, which im sure damn near all of you knew about and have all ceased to give a toss as we've all done with everyone else who's passed it.... its the MOST feable step towards driving.... looking at a screen for up to an hour and clicking if something bad happens, and guessing the right box to tick..... such a thorough examination...
now, ive touched on my MA-HOO-SIVE gap between my last blog and this... truth is, i got very very bored of it. bored of my own writing. i find if i try one thing for too long i get incredibly sloppy... not just in spelling, but everything about it becomes bland.... its like keeping a diary: we all fill in the first 6 pages, and then we get bored after january 7th, and put it behind something for the next 358 days when we realise that we need a new one...and the cycle continues.
sparadic blogging is the only way i could be true to reality and yet stay relativly exciting....
then again..... who needs reality when imagination is just as vivid...
see you soon
Sunday, 15 November 2009
a sobering thought
could you imagin if all the beer and wine and cider, and all the spirits of the world, were to evaporate and disapear....what a sobering thought....
so hello, howdy, and get the fuck out, to another of these blogs, which give an amazing insight into the life and time of one of rthe world foremost comedians: bonny tyler
oh balls to that, i cba. you all ok people? bit of a crappy weekend, weather wise....shame....
poor victory for wales in the rugby on friday in front of 58,907 fans who braved the eliments to watch a scrappy game of schoolyard rugby between us and samoa. i was sat at the north stand, and (as sods law would dictate) all the action took place at the south stand.... ah well
also this week, wales took on scotland, in cardiff city's new stadium, to win 3-0 with all goals being scored in the first half..... really good win for our boys, but shame it was only a friendly.
finally, there's Wales's first 6-nations match in cardiff, on feb 13th..... anyone fancy going? i was thinking we could turn it into a massive 'lets go out and have a laugh' thing.... interest, come see me or someone who cares
question
is it me or is the churchill dog a pervert now?
thought
im gona 'chris brown' you, mother fucker (soz...)
heads-up
well done sarah for passin her test :) anyone who wants to go mcdonalds......... jokes
and im literally busy every day this week, if anyone needs me.
CIAO
making the oblivious, obvious
so hello, howdy, and get the fuck out, to another of these blogs, which give an amazing insight into the life and time of one of rthe world foremost comedians: bonny tyler
oh balls to that, i cba. you all ok people? bit of a crappy weekend, weather wise....shame....
poor victory for wales in the rugby on friday in front of 58,907 fans who braved the eliments to watch a scrappy game of schoolyard rugby between us and samoa. i was sat at the north stand, and (as sods law would dictate) all the action took place at the south stand.... ah well
also this week, wales took on scotland, in cardiff city's new stadium, to win 3-0 with all goals being scored in the first half..... really good win for our boys, but shame it was only a friendly.
finally, there's Wales's first 6-nations match in cardiff, on feb 13th..... anyone fancy going? i was thinking we could turn it into a massive 'lets go out and have a laugh' thing.... interest, come see me or someone who cares
question
is it me or is the churchill dog a pervert now?
thought
im gona 'chris brown' you, mother fucker (soz...)
heads-up
well done sarah for passin her test :) anyone who wants to go mcdonalds......... jokes
and im literally busy every day this week, if anyone needs me.
CIAO
making the oblivious, obvious
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